I set a course for destruction   when I chose to give myself away   and I'm afraid to change what I've already started   but I can't find another way   and so I sit and stare out the window   and wonder   will I ever amount to anything?       At least nowhere is somewhere   I just think too much       I'm bored out of my mind    there's nothing much to do here   I sit around all day and wish that I was somewhere else   and if I had a purpose   I don't know what I'd do with it   I'm so used to this       I feel the pressures of the answers to the questions in my head   I know they'll be there   how do I get back to my state of my mind   my appetite for life is gone   right now I don't care       I'm gonna give it away   it's ok