gotta find my way outta hell- I gotta find my way alone   I see myself dead by suicide by a knife, gun, a blade- or hanging high   Will I be safe or will I die can I stop the voices deep inside, my mind   Dead to me- you re dead to me- you re dead to me, all dead to me   Oh my fucking God!   I'm a victim I've lived through disaster- pushed too far this is a reaction   I hate your lies. I hate my life   Dead to me- you re dead to me- you re dead to me, all dead to me   Oh my fucking God!   I'm a victim I've lived through disaster- pushed too far this is a reaction- to you   I hate your lies. I hate my life   Hoping I ll find a way, a way to live, dead together   A way to hide my fears, a way to disappear   I can't take it- I won't make it, I ll just hate it- I can't take it   I won't make it- I just hate it, I can't take it   I can't change it- I can't take it- I can't take it, I won't make it   Dead to me- you re dead to me- you re dead to me, all dead to me   Dead dead you re soon to be dead   I put a 12-gauge under my chin   Dead to me- you re dead to me- you re dead to me, all dead to me   Oh my fucking God!   I'm a victim I've lived through disaster- pushed too far this is a reaction   died a thousand times again and again-in my mind- I have died   I have slowly withered