No-one told me this was the deal   I didn’t think that anybody cared   Nobody said that if I wasn’t here your heart would break   But you can’t make me guilty   No matter how you try   I’ve felt guilty too many times   There are no more tears to cry   The fire here is smouldering   It’s nearly burnt out and cold   Like the inner reaches of my soul   It’s tired and it’s old   Unaffected by guilt and love and the sounds that make hearts break   I’ll say it once, but that is all,   I’m sorry I was late.      The hunger cannot reach me as I pile out of the door   The world is waiting for me, I need to leave   I used to hate leaving you here   My heart tugged at my soul and eyes   But now it’s not so bad.      They question my intentions, where did I go?   The old me died with the fire   Several nights ago   Not really an almighty loss, a born loser and a cheat   But people say they miss the spark   Their pleas fall on deaf ears   The spark that made me human   Ran away to better lands, a shame   I should have gone there too.   The guilt that used to kill me,   Left through the open gate   I will not cry, worry or swear,   I’ m sorry I was late.      The scene that awaited me   Was hard to bear      My soul, ripped out   Was crying, standing there   ‘You let me go, I won’t come back, I’ll drag you to your grave   Your allies are depraved   Of sensitivity and warmth   That you used to save.   You’ve tarnished all you ever did   There’s no point going on.’      The words they stung at first   Because they were true   But it won’t make me change my ways   Because I was deaf to all such insults, emotions drag you to hell!      I let it go, it won’t come back, it’ll drag me to my grave   I’ll say it only once again,   I’m sorry I was late.