Study this as you study your first born   My first song was pain personified in song   The longest sequence is looped for days long   Where bass kicks are fierce and snares are   Known to drop a lot quicker than a child's tears   And drown out the drama that I didn't want to share   The load I wouldn't wish upon my enemies to bear   The times I used to tell myself you didn't want to hear   Until the reason in my rhyme become clear   Now what I write makes the load a lot lighter   The story of my life epitomizes imperfection   As a musical where every scene seems to lack direction   And I stand center stage stunned by what's happening   Blinded by the lights, heroin's action   Although I never asked for this lead role   It seems that God decided it a long time ago   I was chosen for this   Given the gift to gain and maintain the crowd's cheers   I break bread over beats with like-minded peers   And share the story of my last trip into the atmosphere   On the ninth cloud, I-sanity(?) in style   Arms outstretched and Hell in God's breath   I saw the stairway to heaven   And counted one-hundred and forty-four thousand steps   I wanted to climb but it wasn't my turn yet   So I returned to earth just before the sun set   And I could stare, waiting for this golden opportunity to share      Now I share this with you   I'll share this with you   With all of you   I'll share this with you   I'll share this with   Each and every   One of you      Now in my younger days that quickly passed   I fell asleep in history class   Not enchanted my past misery   I'd rather chase down the present with a glass of hennessy   And tilted my flower-like childhood wilted when my innocence was secluded   Plus the water we gave to it stayed polluted like the veins of cocaine users   My blood stream's still a little murky from flash-backs of murder scenes   Medical emergencies that fell upon deaf ears   Over 8 million stories in a city that nobody wants to hear   But as bad as it appears, I am happy that I'm here      To share this with you   To share this with you   To share this with   All of you   To share this with you   Share this with you   Share this with   Each and every one of you      Heh, and share I will   I'll share the nights where fist fights left somebody's body lying still   The ice grills, the cold of wire(?) night's chill   I'll even share the blood spill   The memory of all my loved ones killed   The unpaid bills   The pain of a terminally ill   My ill will towards my rivals   My approach towards hip-hop survival   The circumstance that made some suicidal   The same circumstance that made others homicidal   The signs of the vital   The ways of the trial   The dope fiends that walk around my block in denial   The short life cycles   The minds that lie idle   My people that got out of court on a missed trial   My hunger to become more grounded in the Bible   Is smiled on behalf of my last day's arrival