I was nowhere near ready when all it ended   So I hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you      You gave me the chance, time and again in vain   Now my feelings for you   Every tear, every smile, paid in full   Wrecked the chain, but no longer can I take the pain      [Chorus]   It's hard for me to love myself right now   I waited, hated, blamed it all on you      Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak   So again only blamed myself for this state we are in   I will take what you have for me now, it's not too late      Did you change? I did too   Love can grow from the last grain      [Chorus]   It's hard for me to love myself right now   I waited, hated, blamed it all on you      I need you less and less every day   Fix this moral decay   Yet I've grown to love you even more      My fault that you then turned another cheek   You mouth the words, you're not ready to speak   You're scared of me, although I never had a clue   That I'd become so much stronger than you      [Solo]      I will take what you have for me now if it's not too late   If you like I will leave, I will not miss the last train again      [Chorus]   It's hard for me to love myself right now   I waited, hated, blamed it all on you   It's hard for me to love your face right now   I'm waiting, hating, needing, being me      I need you less and less   And every day leads us farther away   From that moment      [Chorus]   It's hard for me to hate myself right now   Finally I'm understanding me   One day we may have whole new me's and you's   But first I need to learn to love me too