I see myself with nothing to do   Nothing to show for the last year or two   I don't have much left that I can prove      I try not to dwell on past mistakes   I try not to believe my life's been a waste   But it comes to haunt me everyday      Envy fills my mind   Envy takes up all of my precious time   It leaves me with nothing else      I've lost my pride   Jealousy has become part of my life   And everyone else can tell      Suffering regrets of things that I have done   I don't feel content with second to me   I feel like I let down everyone