(Chorus x2:)    I'm so hidden and you're never gonna see    I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs    I'm nobody that you ever wanna be    Cause I know that the world is afraid of me       (Monoxide:)       Now you can try to sedate me    Assassinate or just hate me    But there's nothing you can do to me lately    Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind    So I'm confused and intertwined    From being rejected so many times    I wanna leave it all behind    So kindly you'da picked up the album and give it a try for once    And wanna tell your homies that "These motherfuckers'll die for us"    So many questions, fingers pointing for answers    Suggestin' that I'm the cancer that lingers inside the past    Of your green grass, up to my neck in situations    It's too fast to think about it, most people can't dream about    A hundred million miles in every single second    And everytime you hear this record    I want you to feel my on every sentence    Reminice from decendents of past trenches    Will embark on a journey that will stay alive forever    That's how it's layin over on MY side of the fence    Regardless of the circumstances or the consequence       (chorus)       (Jamie Madrox:)       I am my own worst enemy    I'm not the smartest muthafucka and shit, I don't pretend to be    And why I am the way I am is not a mystery    My mind's not in proper working order, we're in therapy    Derranged, confused and mentally abused    Life's been hanging on the streets so what fuck I got to lose?    And what the fuck I got to prove to you?    If you don't know me by now, you'll never know me    You can put that on my REAL homies    I got problems and they stack like bills    And I relate to the broken, bleeding hard love killed    And I awaited in the shadows, awake in the dark    Hopin' to talk to the past, lord, I'm falling apart    I'm such a mess, indecisive and fading away    I'm out of touch with society and living today    Never relied on my sanity, I threw it away    To become the maniac that's got your attention today       (chorus)       (Monoxide:)       Can you keep a secret?    Well I'm afraid of the world because they want me to die    Can you believe it? Well I'm still alive and been floatin since 95    With my chin held high but I'm so dead inside    That the problems just roll up in my back into a pile    Cause it's just a bunch of shit that I can't deal with right now    And I'm tired of always guessin', I'm messin' it up again    The next day it's even deeper and I'm steady sinking in       (Jamie Madrox:)       I took a look at myself and came to grips with what I found    It was a vision of a child, disturbed and broke down    No soul, no heart cause I gave it away    No time for feelin' sorry, I'll greive another day    And all those tears are stored in storm clouds    That hover above me, and cover the ugly    Continue to haunt me, but now it's feeling low    That's the same reason I hold on and never let go       (chorus x4)