I can't believe my ears. I've heard the slander now for years. Day in day out I'm told that I don't know what's best, what's best for me.      I feel it, I want it, and in my heart it's true. I feel it, I want it, there's nothing you can do. I'm so ashamed. I soiled the name.      Dad said she's off the wall. Mom said he dropped the ball. Oh well, let's all move on and live our lives the same, and it's not okay.      You wonder why I choose to hide. I'm just the family's disappointment now anyway. Don't question me. Why can't you see? That you can't mold my life for me.