I've been living with a secret, secret   and I don't know if I can keep it, keep it   and I know that if I leave it, leave it   it's just gonna keep getting bigger      it seems that life has got so hectic, hectic   it's getting harder to protect it, tect it   but I know that if I let it, let it   it's just gonna keep getting bigger      if she finds out I'm someone I don't wanna be   if I let myself down I'll blame it on transparency   if I let them down gently maybe they'll admire me   'cause if everyone loves me it might ease my anxiety      it seems my honour is forsaken, saken   it seems my friends have started hating, hating   all my nervous system's shaking, shaking   it's just gonna keep getting bigger      I'm a criminal in hiding, hiding   and you're the father I confide in, fide in   there's a shadow that's been rising, rising   it's just gonna keep getting bigger      if she finds out I'm someone I don't wanna be   if I let myself down I'll blame it on transparency   if I let them down gently maybe they'll admire me   'cause if everyone loves me it might ease my anxiety      if she finds out I'm someone I don't wanna be   if I let myself down I'll blame it on transparency   if I let them down gently maybe they'll admire me   'cause if everyone loves me it might ease my anxiety