Do I only think what I did   Was a stupid thing because   I did not get what I wanted   Or would it have been no matter what?      What if something had happened?   Would I still have fallen apart?   What if..?   Would you have pushed her right out of my heart?   Is there something I don't want to face?   Might it not have been seen a mistake?      What if something had happened?   And this is not to say that you were   Anything but without blame   But was I always going to lose her   If not over you then another face?      I know I missed the beginning   But isn't that only to be expected?   I no longer know anything   I no longer know anything   Is there something I don't want to face   Was it over anyway?      Does she cast such a shadow   Because she hasn't been followed yet?   Would she do so   If someone walked in her footsteps?   Am I right to feel such regret?   Is there something I don't want to face   Could she easily be betrayed?   So easily be betrayed?