you see it was drawn easy, my services for a rewarding fee.    never thinking then of the hundreds i've hurt.   their morals and family so deserted, you see,    back then my mind was conned, caught in a pipe dream.    understand my path set forth from a struggling background.    mom always worked her hardest maintaining her four hounds.    scared and afraid that my own child's future    was at stake quickly reacting was where i made my biggest mistake.    filled with dillusions i fell,    i fell deep in my grave carried by deceits devouring waves.    i can still remember her nights in tears of rage    never giving up even with her life in a ruthless maze.    took a harsh lesson for me to understand life.    what once was taken granted stabbed with a knife.    i've towed along loved ones throughout my experiences,    placed them in torturous wars when it all was needless.    now and then i failed to think deep clear inside.    now and then i rather maintain a modest existence.    now and then never again will i barter my freedom.