[Verse 1]  As a child I felt lonely and helpless  Low cash from a neighborhood wealthless  I'll stick a wino, and rob him for his last penny  Happy days around my way we didn't find many  Momma said that I was outta line talkin smack  Extension cords to this young nigga's black back  A juvenile, thirteen, now I'm locked up  Scared to cry, I don't wanna get fucked up  Fifty push ups a strain on my young chest  I paint the pictures that I pose for a sleeveless  I see my momma only supervised when she cry  She said my baby brother's comin he aint far behind  Somebody tell me how I ended up like this  I wait for God to give me strength, I'ma fight this  I refuse to bend down 'cause I'm young and wild  Do or die that's this young nigga's rough style  They'll never find me    CHORUS:  Searchin to find me [4X]  My soul will be free before they find me    [Verse 2]  I hit the street full grown, momma's gone now  Had a heart attack I'm living on my own now  My black boots and my state green all I own  And a burning desire for a microphone  I see my little man Tiah bless me wit a burner  Any coincidence I'm feeling like Nat Turner  Twenty stick ups in thirty days they see me comin  Everybody on the block duck and start runnin  A old lady told me baby boy calm down  But like in Vietnam war I got to bomb now  My cash was up a little somethin, somethin, takin shake  I blasted reddie at the weedgate and took his papes  'cause I done came a long way, in a short time  And I'm willing to die tryin to get mine  Alotta niggas think I'm cool wit 'em, guess what  Them niggas in for a shock 'cause I'm fucked up  You'll never find me    CHORUS    [Verse 3]  I got a little crew now I'm selling weight  White mickeyed out Navigator, tight straight  I got the butter soft seats watch a video  Stag a lee, everybody in the city knows  I make my rounds and I'm checkin how my work's moving  Shit is picking up nice, life is improving  I got the baddest bird in Brooklyn, she six months  She keep a eye on my whole house, my youngsters  I got my honey on the side she don't know about  I'm on my way to see her now, I'm a blow her out  I pull up to see her standing in the door waiting  Shorty fine like a porn star masturbating  She said, "Daddy are you hungry, would you like to eat  Would you let me rub your back, can I kiss your feet"  I told her, "Baby make the bed 'cause I need rest"  She sucked me down until I fell asleep, God bless  I see my momma with my eyes closed, kinda strange  Time to wake up and touch something, outta range  White clouds with the softness I hear the music  What the hell is going on here I'm 'bout to lose it  Momma why you talking to me like you right here  She said, "Son you outta focus now, come clear"  She said, "Your life'll be a milestone for everyone  Because your layin in the bed that you made son"  Look how they found me    CHORUS