Don’t tell me how to believe  I know it takes a little time   And all I’m doing is trying to get by  But it’s killing me just to try  Feel like I am wasting my life    And I don’t wanna give up  What if I’m not strong enough  Don’t wanna be what I’m not  But I’m giving all I got    Cali how was I supposed to know  If this is really it why do I feel like letting go  Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be  I was ready to show them all  Why do I feel like I’m not me  Why do I feel like I’m not me    But I knew every word  Man I had it all down  There was nothing I forgot to say  How did it all turn around  And why did nothing go my own way    Cali how was I supposed to know  If this is really it why do I feel like letting go  Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be  I was ready to show them all  Why do I feel like I’m not me  Why do I feel like I’m not me    And you were some kind of a dream  Was it all a fantasy was it really meant to be  And they all said this was the real deal  Now how am I supposed to feel    Cali how was I supposed to know  If this is really it why do I feel like letting go  Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be  I was ready to show them all  Why do I feel like I’m not me  Why do I feel like I’m not me    California