Can’t pick apart the pieces, can’t pick apart     I never knew as I grew older  I would grow nothing but colder  And become some sociopath  with a chip on his shoulder  Holding a bottle of Old English  to extinguish the smoldering  pits of tension, and its  heightening the chance of an ulcer  The older I get – The further from closure  The only thing I hate more than being myself  is being sober  It’s funny when you’re all alone and older  You try to get back the quarter  when the game’s already over  And it’s over, over  I’m sick of living my life as a loner, loner  With a case of post traumatic stress disorder, order  Drop the puzzle box and put the pieces back in order, well, sort of  Cause my life could use a change of pace  Blue skies instead of shades of gray  Give me a bottle let me fade away  Connecting all the puzzle pieces until I save the day, that’s why I’m….    Lost in thought, Staring at my feet  Keep my eyes peeled for that puzzle piece  It’s a shade of blue from the brightest day  And all I keep finding are these shades of gray    Another day, another bottle  Another spiraling to defeat  It seems this is becoming the routine to follow  Which probably isn’t the smartest thing, honestly  I just don’t see myself strong without something  to coddle me  God only knows what’s going on  cause my stomach’s in knots  I’m all out of love, and baby love is all that I got  All I was taught is life is like a rollercoaster that’s  broken  You don’t know when you’re taking the fall  til your soul has been stolen  So keep your hands and your feet in the ride at all times  And try – Not to scream while you’re losing your mind  Sometimes life is rotten, when you’re lost and forgotten  Plummeting down the mountain wondering when you’ll hit the bottom  Everything sucks, Everything’s fine  Everything’s fucked up cause I can’t make up my mind  Everything sucks, Everything’s fine  Putting my life back together is just a waste of my time    Lost in thought, Staring at my feet  Keep my eyes peeled for that puzzle piece  It’s a shade of blue from the brightest day  And all I keep finding are these shades of gray    these lyrics are submitted by cousin stephen