The shade moves from green to red  On this cold autumn morning I lay in my bed  And it's so hard to feel  When the air has grown cold  And some wounds never heal    So I keep waiting for this  Moment to end when another was missed  And it's always sad to see  That no one is waiting for me    As memories go down the drain  I'm walking on water till the temperature changed  And it's so hard for me  To get up each morning and continue to breathe    So I keep waiting for this  Moment to end when another was missed  And it's always sad to see  That no one is waiting for me    These clothes never seem to fit  I'm wasting away and I'm losing my grip  And it's so hard to change  The harder I've tried, I just end up the same