I had a brother once   He drowned in a bathtub   before he'd ever learned how to talk   And I don’t know what his name was   but my mother does   I heard her say it once   Padraic my prince, I have all but died   From the sheer weight of my shame   You cried but no one came   And the water filled your tiny lungs   Appear, my dear, and cry for me   Six years ago today   That I laid you in your grave   Your sweet young skin was shining then too   So tonight to celebrate i will...   I will poison myself   Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom   That is spinning   And I close the door   And I rest my head on the tile floor   Sickness and sleep turning me cold   I'm still not sure   Is there some better place I could be heading towards?   Where the selfishly sick and self-absorbed...   Are welcome   I saw the future once   I was drunk in a phone booth   My eyes were wet and red   But I could not tell what was said   And through the screams of the traffic   Voices carried   Saying I'm sorry   On a day so gray it's black inside   Watching churches on TV   In a coma you don’t dream   You just hope that someone sits with you   Babies turn blue when they're ignored   Like the sky on summer days   Before you turn and walk away   It has changed you   So tonight to compensate I will...   I will poison myself   Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom   That is spinning