I will always remember how it used to be   You thought pleasure was to fucking beat me   You always told me I was the one insane   You found joy and got off on making me feel pain    And there's no way to change this shattered heart  Cause the memory I have of you still tears me apart    And it's been this way since time began  It's a desperate search for a promised land  And the years slip by like so much sand    So many people like me are dying to live  It tortures my heart I have so much to give  I never saw it as a MELEE before  To win the fight there has to be more    And there's no way to help this shattered heart  Cause all these fears will one day tear me apart    And it's been this way since time began  It's an endless journey, it's the fate of this woman  To live each day and never understand    And it's been this way since time began  It's a desperate search for a master plan  And the years slip by like water through my hands