everything i thought was real  every dream, every feeling cold  all the ghosts i tried to run from  all the storms rusting into me  . . . SO TELL ME HOW TO FEEL  NOW THAT YOU AREN'T REAL  THERE'S NOTHING TO REVEAL    i ran on glass, broke my bones so i could find you  i cut myself to be around you  and when i bled, you disappeared  just like you knew i always feared  i closed my eyes, and climbed on you so i could breathe  i hung my noose around your tree  suffered addiction to the air around you  now my whole world exists without you    i was a son, i was an angel falling from heaven  i was a slave to your oppression  the prophets never spoke of reasons  for me or for my bitter freedom  you spit on me, filled my dirt with seeds of black  as i carved your name across my back  burned out my eyes into your sun  oh, can't you see now what you've done to me?    if i close my eyes, will this all go away?  if i take your pill, will it all fade away?  if i wake myself, will my darkness peel?  i can't sleep away because nothing is real.  if i close my eyes, will this all go away?  if i take your pill, will it all fade away?  if i wake myself, will my darkness peel?  i can't sleep, nothing left is real.  there's nothing left to feel  nothing left is real  there's nothing left to feel  so tell me how to feel