I'm not blind but I can't see   not a friend or anything   I don't know what's wrong with me   I can't remember anything      instead of stars   I count the darkeness      and the layers of feelings that I shed      I guess so far   I can't feel sharpness      only dull and blunt in my head      late at night when i can't sleep   I just lay awake and dream   of what could have been   and what should have been   if I could do it all again         up for days and that's alright   I wish that I could lose my mind   my brain is fried now and I can't hide how   I can't hide how I feel on the inside         late at night when i can't sleep   I just lay awake and dream   of what could have been   and what should have been   if I could do it all again         and I know what I said   and I guess I can't take it back now      so I try to sleep in my own bed   but I can't remember how