V1   I hold my tears till im underwater   So yall don’t never see me cryin   Holdin my breath till I can resurface   But I can feel myself dyin      Too long without oxygen in my lungs   Maybe im tired   Maybe its time for me to breathe easy   But I could never let you see me      Give in to bein underfire   No matter how short I breathe I get   Cause to let it show is to let you know   At times how weak I really get      And im trying to be strong for the both of us   Hold on for the both of us   But how long can I hold by breathe   For the both of us      Its too much on my shoulders here   And I just cant cope with it   Knowin deaths round the corner   And im standin so close to him      Im supposed to show no emotion   But its getting harder to focus   Cause the reality of my life here   Is that I have no control of it      Feel the need to come up for air   But with you there I must hold it   And yeah I know how close I come everyday   But I could never let you know it      Its too much for you to feel my pain   So I send you all smiles   Holdin my breathe telling you its alright   But the truth is im drownin      Chorus   Sample is saying “holdin my breath for you”   “so you never see me crying”      v2   this is so close to bein over   but we aint left here yet   and its been rainin the whole time   but I managed to never get wet      while those around me soaked   from the moment the first convoy left   but who knows cause the way things goin   any day now I could be next      and I aint trying to see yall back home   with my problems on your chest   so the truth evolves into what I think you need to hear   just to relax      so for you im always at my best   I continue to see clearly   But I could never lie to myself   And the truth is im more than a little worried      But that part of my heart   Stays closed when im on the phone with my family   How can I expect them to handle something   Im havin a hard time handling      And as strong as I may be   Can carry this weight forever   Cause im fallin apart underneath it   Trying to piece myself back together      Hopin for the best   But at times the worst seems to get the better of me   So its everything I got not to let you see   Whats really troubling me      Can feel my lungs under pressure   And they are beggin me to breathe   But I cant, not with you standin there   So I hold my breath till you leave.