I was drunk, I didn't let on   As I stood before your door at dawn   I guess I might have awaken the dogs   Because the shadows started coughing them out      So I put my hands into my hair   And I pulled and let it hurt   There was a light going out somewhere   I thought it hear through the wood      That held the house together   That kept me out here in the cold   I knew the sun was going to change the weather   But I was looking she never would show      I was jamming my hands in my pockets   And I was thinking about throwing a stone   But if I had the courage I knew that I lost it   I was too scared to walk myself home      So lit out on a concrete rail   And I made my way through the dead park   I could still here the cicadas wailing   As the morning fog rolled off the dark      I had the whole night in my lungs   I was breathing so hard and so fast   I scored one for the catholic girls   And I tried to stuff it all in a box      You know the kind that comes with a key   You can throw in the lake or bury somewhere   I though about the kid you knew before me   And how he held onto that lock of your hair      He kept it tied up in a sad rubber band   In his dresser drawer on the right side   Now he walks around with strands of you all over him   As if you were still spending the night      I was jamming my hands in my pockets   I swear I was zero at the bones   If I felt my courage making a come back   I was drunk, I didn't let on      Cause I was doing like my pa had always done   I was trying to rise back from the dead   Saying all those ghost prayers before the storm   Hoping God won't hit me over the head      I guess I was out for a revelation   I was kicking out agaist the darkness   I had dew all over my body   From sleeping in a ball under a park bench      I was so sure I would never make it   I remember like it happened only yesterday   I don't know why I'm still holding onto it   Don't hearts break nearly every other day      When you try to make the sweetness last   Cause everything happens so fast   And your waiting with half dry eyes   For something to fall or something to rise