There's so much pain   Pain behind us   Pain beside us   Pain through us   Pain to make us sore   Erase our sense of trust   Pain to bring us closer   To undo us      I wanted you   In truth, I want you still   But you're so far away   Unless I play the rules by which you want to play      But then I feel you push me back   As if it's challenge that you lack      I say lover, reveal love   Never conceal love   I want you still   Lover, be careful before you lose me   I want you still      You're so alone   Do you deserve it?   I know you think so   Do you know what's real?   Are you afraid what something real can make you feel?      You stayed with him on the losing side   You never gave in   But he's so far away   And if he didn't help you then, he won't today      But you're afraid to make believe   But I only play my heart for keeps      I want you still   Oh, I could wait for you to come to the realization