I won't forget the day that   That I came to   And I started thinking that there's more   Than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons      And all I ever wanted   Was someone   To knock me back to   The bliss of ignorance   Cause I feel like running head first into traffic      And so I'm here to say   That thoughts in bed with pain      I won't forget the day that   That I found God   In a kitchen knife and on my arm   So paint the pail white floor with   With my red life      And tell me that this pain is   The pain you love   As I swallow the pills happiness   And you watchy me fall like   New York in an earthquake      I stand outside my pretty house   I light a matchto start the fire   I called the cops to let em know   It's 22 Walthery Ave      I thought I wanted this      I'm here to say   I said I wanted some more attention   I thought I wanted a story ending      I think the truth is I'm scared   I think that I'm just scared to live   I think that the truth is   I'm everything that I hate