i dream so loudly,   i'm afraid you'll hear   you're always in them,   my thoughts are clear   until i wake up,   they get mixed around   my words feel sideways   my eyes fall to the ground   they're coming down      i would have lived a lifetime   if i died right now   i'd be staring at you   from my cumulus clouds      in the backyard, we were everything   sailors   twenty years later, nothing has changed   just sitting here   broken sticks and an empty dress up case      i would have lived a lifetime   if i died right now   i'd be staring at you   from my cumulus clouds      you cried inside your bed   where i played this song   though the chords were sloppy   and the melody was entirely wrong   and i kissed your eyelids   or at least where i thought that they should be   you were close to me   and i can't breathe   i can't breathe