I’ve been getting fed up.   Oh, so sick of this big fake smile.   When they say, “You with your juvenile noise,   time to grow up, you’re in denial.”   If I was starving for fame, to get my name in big bright lights,   I’d go charter a small plane and fall out of the sky.   And you’ve been licking your red lips so long waiting just for this.   My hands have been keeping my mouth shut   from everything spilling out.   Despite all the shame I’ve already caused,   get ready for more. I’m numb to the pain that rattles my bones.   Yeah, I have felt this before.   And I worry that you’re on to me.   I’m your prey, your own casualty.   It’s funny how fate saves us in ways so unpredictable.   And in the end, you will never get back what you put in.   Despite all the shame I’ve already caused,   get ready for war.   I’m numb to the pain that rattles my bones.   Yeah, I have felt this before.         Three, Four (EP), 2005      SUDDENLY   Suddenly, I just found myself waiting for the phone to ring   And I‘m hiding out simply ‘cuz it’s scaring me   Not relying on the people that I ought to be   Another month or two of everybody testing me   And it’s time.   So much to do, I’ll be lucky just to open up this parachute   As we’re falling closer I’ll be holding onto you   Wake me up when it is over if I get through   And all the things to you I promised will be coming soon   And it’s time.   I’m tired of writing on the back of these postcards   Describing everything that you’ve missed so far   I’m kicking this bad habit on my own   I’m not surprised, that it’s never obvious to all the other guys   When I’m with you I’m invisible, it’s my disguise   Everybody get behind me, you can form a line   Just hope you’re comfortable standing there your whole life.      NOT ON MY WATCH   So what the hell do we know?   Our response is much too slow and questions linger still   Everybody’s waiting for you to come back laughing   After fucking with us all   Should I have been easier on you?   After you suffered more than anyone   Never did I under-estimate you, I never did once   I wish there was a reason for taking one from me   Boy, you put up one good fight   Everybody’s praying   You’re somewhere up there sailing over us tonight   I never did once, not on my watch      WINDSHIELD   Any way, I can help you through the day   I for one, know the sun, so I’ll tell him to stay out   This letter grade, you got an ”A”, congratulate yourself kid   Would I have known that today’s your birthday?   I’ve been sitting here all day thinking that today’s your worst day   We’ll celebrate and stay up late, and watch our favorite TV show   Would you know, it was cancelled yesterday   We’ll get that guy, who threw that rock into my windshield   I can only ask why he wouldn’t give a shit about how he thinks I’d feel   And no one can describe, as patient as I am, how bad I want this deal   So we’ll get that guy who threw that rock into my windshield   Yesterday all across the state, on the news they showed your face   And your name, your hiding place, and I’m afraid it’s too late   By the way, at the bottom of the page   On the line, I signed your name and your whole life away      WAIT FOR ME THERE   I don’t mind if you sit beside me in everything we do   To some, it’s nothing new   Would you wait for me there - You said you would so   Would you wait for me there - I thought that I could   In a way it’s official, nothing’s really changing at all   But they’ll miss her, of course they will   If you recall what I asked you in summertime   And if you don’t know it already, I’ve got something in mind.      ON ELVIRA STREET   What an awful start to this New Year for us all   We’re picking up the pieces of our hearts that broke apart   So here’s to all your courage and your strength for fighting hard   For everybody loves you, you’re the namesake in our hearts   And it’s gonna be fine over time   Memories of climbing trees on Elvira Street   Sinking our feet into the sand at Redondo Beach   And though our one & only is gone   We need you to keep carrying on   Cause you’re the one we look up to   I won’t stop praying for you   And it’s gonna be fine over time