It's gone and I'm lost   And I've tossed away love   Without weighing the cost   And I'm sombre as sundays   Lonely as steel guitars   Sick as stray cats now   'Cause you feel so far      And could you please fix me?   You mixed up my plans   I'll be damned till I'm sixty   I'm old inside   I'm hiding behind my youth   Inside my eyes is where you can find the truth      It's over, it's nothing   I'm glad I was sober   I knew you were bluffing   But holy fuck it stings   When you say those things   To pull my puppet strings      It's over and done with   There's some shit I hate   And I fear I've become it   But I can switch and shift   And turn these lumps of coal   Into Christmas gifts      And If I had you, I could make it   Through one whole day without telling a lie   If I had you, I would know   That life was more than a piss in the dark   If I had you, I could stop   These years from slipping away through time   If I had you, I would know   That we would never be missing that spark      I'm a man beaten senseless   Defenseless against a barrage of relentless   Kicks and blows and sticks   And some makeshift knives   I almost prayed they'd stay   And please take this life      I'm ugly and bucktoothed   My fucked youth's been wasted   Can't wait to be cut loose   But I'm not griping   Wipe all your tears away   It feels like lightning each time I hear you say      It's over, it's nothing   I'm glad I was sober   I knew you were bluffing   But holy fuck it stings   When you say those things   To pull my puppet strings      It's over and done with   There's some shit I hate   And I fear I've become it   But I can switch and shift   And turn these lumps of coal   Into Christmas gifts      But if I had you, I could make it   Through one whole year without thinking of you   If I had you, I could make it   Through one whole day without saying your name   If I had you, I could make it   Through one night without drinking for two   If I had you, I could spend    These years lost, at least I'm not paying in pain      You're gone and I'm lost   And I've tossed away love without weighing the costs   But what I lack in words   Is flowing from my heart and going back to yours   I'm doing the right thing   The shite thing about it is it's not exciting   Because I'm licked and lost   Feeling like a coin being flipped and tossed      It's over, it's nothing   I'm glad I was sober   I knew you were bluffing   But holy fuck it stings   When you say those things   To pull my puppet strings      It's over and done with   There's some shit I hate   And I fear I've become it   But I can switch and shift    And turn these lumps of coal   Into Christmas gifts      And if I had you...