are there no blinders on lights that glare   white noise on the eyes   from gas station lights and reflected ice glare   so that i can walk home by moonlight   alone      or can we go out to where the wind howls and stand to lean up against the trees   they've grown up so tall that you can't see the house   it's a fortress now but you know how it used to be   i can lie to myself   and say i like it   but i would love it if you were here      these words on paper smell like you   associated in random thought   on my lips the words turn blue   evidence i'm feeling lost   i can lie to myself   and say i like it   but i would love it if you were here   i'm just sad for myself   cause i know you're clear   but i would love it if you were here      i can just see you show me your garden   i thought you'd grow roses and grapes on low vines   i wanted to know you when we were both older   i thought there'd be more of those wonderful times   i can lie to myslef   and say i like it   but i would love it if you were here   i'm just sad for myself   cause i know you're clear   but i would love it if you were here   you were here   yes you were   yes you were