it was hard to let you go   harder yet to hear those words   and every day since then   i've been tryin' to break your curse   for all those times you made me   wonder why i live   i'd paralyze my hate   with all the thoughts of love   that you'd give to me      as long as i live i can never forget you   even though i try with all my heart   as long as i live i can never forget you   even though i try with all my might   it just ain't right      well, it's five years later now   and my heart's no longer numb   the way we acted was so childish and dumb   i was just a toy to you   but you never really cared   'cause it's so clear to me   that the feelings were so strong   you were scared of me