I find myself wishing for a ladder   To climb from this car   Did I say I loved you today?      Driving over hills and by beaten lonely towns   I think of you more now I'm gone   Outside it is blue and green   And everything once blurred is clear   I am part of the peripheral scene   That shines like cathedral glass      The sun breathes against the window   But its warmth just fades away   The humming road whispers low   It says sometimes you feel alone   cause sometimes you are   And hope lies dead upon your shoulder      The signs are passing like ghosts   Too late to turn, too late now   Too late when, too late for everything      The road turns me away   From the last light of the day   Too late now, too late when   Too late for everything      We share more than the end   A tragic blend of cocktails with a kiss   My love grows anxious   Waiting for the cure - picking sores   We were careless   To be taken by such misery   That tastes of violence - the saints are silent   God won't perform here anymore      My love is pale   A perfect shade of fear   Balled up on the floor   In need   We turned away the sun   Cold, empty, alone   Embrace the violence   The saints are silent   God won't perform here anymore      Fade away, far away      I've lost all feeling      I go and come back   Like memories and symptoms   They go and come back forever evermore   Part of me remains abandoned in a circle   And part of me moves on      The wipers move back and forth confessing   The scenes pass through my eyes   Slipping through darkness   Deeper than oceans   The miles can't purify      My dashboard glows cold liquid red   The miles tick on and on   Rainfall adds to a beat, lamenting   What's been said and done      Out here there could be giants   I want to walk in their shade   Introduce me to a brand new kiss   Help me forget my love   Push thru another mile - one more day   Cash the promise of escape   Out here I am immortal   Live thru me      Sky has opened   Suppose I could ignore the rain   Should I listen to all that's golden   And the ghosts of its curse      Ray: What have I done   Chris: Here I am   Brett: Live through me      Love is right in front of me so appealing - lies      Whispers drag me   Into this lonely place of misery   Where flies drown with beauty queens   Where tomorrow goes to die      Whiskey numbs me   Love rots in my heart   Broken men drink to heal   Their sting from a loaded flower      Poet's eyes of fire   Burning holes   Drunk on his own words   Spit to gold   Poet's Vegas smile   Twisting necks   Everybody's friend   Face to face   Whispers want me   To drag the poet down   Whiskey wants me   To give in, give up, give out      There is no lamb, no hope   There is no garden, no peace      Tall proud, stand up loud   Nation national tradition traditional   Anthem icon march on folk song   In the fields and on the heath   I lose strength through joy      Mothers cry for the fatherland   Fathers cry for the motherland   God is with us, manifest destiny   Protect, avenge, remember old glory   Discipline, adrenaline   Revenge old glory      Don't tread on me, don't ask why   Right as rain, John Wayne   John Doe, GI Joe, GI Jane      Hatred twisted into pride   Fear twisted into obedience   For the good of the cause, Marshall laws, no quarter   I'll be back, 5 stars, mars, red rivers   Markers, stones, bones      Living days like a sidearm   I loved the way I could repay   Pride has got me by the bootstraps   The trumpets sounded every day      Did I dream of stars and gardens   Tended rows crushed flat and dead   I saw you fall divine in shadows   Baptized in moonlight turned to red      I saw an army ripe ascending   Rising as the righteous do   They did love peace as a means to war   They trampled gods they overthrew      There in dust and sweat and power   I saw you drive spike into flesh   Now the blood is on your gamble   Spilling clean upon your bet      I hear the road beneath my wheels   Spin and roar   Spit my teeth blood and tongue   Dashboard Jesus on the floor   Smoke and glass, twisted steel   Hard to catch a breath   Hard to pay from all of this   Devil in my ear      Scratch keeps humming   Your end is not the end   Your life is not your life   Your time is mine to spend   Try to climb from all of this   My hold is weak and spent   Feel the ladder slip away   Devil rakes my back      So sorry my love      Gave you my everything   Made you my day   Became a part of me   No more wishing you away      Where were my kinder words   Where were my open arms   Where was my time for you   It was lost on a thousand reasons      And even now your heart is open...ready to receive   And even now I am forgiven...ready for love again   But my hope is a memory lost in sorrow...ground in the asphalt   And yet still it is born as new...ready to receive      My mistake was I learned to see the heads of my shadow   Damned in fate fighting them off everyday   Endlessly wandering - wondering   If I died would they leave my side      I crawled from under Mary's feet   Into a pool of disbelief   Staring back at me   Stronger than ever - forever   Separate the useless from the green   Keep me safe   I would do anything it takes   To feel the sun again      I am ready to receive      Love waits like an aging whore   Like a faithful dog   Like a convict   In honeysuckle half-light   Love goes and comes again   Like junkies and fellows   Like birthdays and salmon   Inhale inhale exhale   Kiss me hello   Call me goodbye      My hope is a coin in a shattered fountain   Distorted   Out of touch   But shining through      My fear was a fever   That's been cooled and forgiven   And I wait for the morning   When I come back to you...