I sat in my armchair   and listened politely   as you tried to invite me   but the answer was no   and the distance between us   can never be crossed now   and I'm calling out for you   but they won't let me go   they won't let me go      The people around you   a crowd without number   all beautifully singing   and dressed up like snow   Can noone believe me   with one drop of water   I'm calling out for you   but they won't let me go   they won't let me go      And I'm crawling for the table   melting like snow   and they won't let me go      I wish I could drown down here in this ocean of light   I wish I could close my ears to the chorus of Christ   I wish I was blind   but I can't close my eyes   I can't close my eyes      The fire is freezing   it burns without breathing   I'm down in the darkness   where nothing can grow   eternally knowing   I've chosen to be here   I'm calling out for you   but they won't let me go   they won't let me go      And I'm crawling for the table   melting like snow   and they won't let me go   they won't let me go