smells on the air see there it's crushing the final   impression   the stains on the paper   where words fell like water unearth all the changes that   never did matter   i think it's beginning to freeze here   caught in the rage and the fire of things all the brightness   that burns me   i'm fumbling through like a child in dark when the   nakedness comes i am   shocked by the colour   the glorious weight of your skin   comes alive   and i never thought we'd make it back so soon   might be nice but i knew you'd be your own destroyer   comes a time   and i always thought i'd make it up to you   here please forgive me how could we escape all the   bitterness piled upon   bitterness   held in the face of the things that i don't understand   intellectualize over   and over   this helplessness suits us it's funny how quiet has slipped   to our corners   and worn all our edges away you are watching   breathing and baiting   wanting and warming and cautiously waiting for some    simple signal to   creep cross your conscience   uncover redemption and oh did i mention i carried you   down to the   st. lawrence river   the banks running dirty the waters begin to freeze here   solid by morning and i'll freeze here   winter by morning   comes a lie   and i never thought you'd get me back so soon   might be nice but it's only if my own destroyer   comes alive   and i always knew i'd make it up to you   i saw on your face such a curious grin as i let go your   hand i was   desperate to hold you again   but your sinking to deep in the water outsmarted myself   and so easily   gave up what i wanted   solid by morning   comes alive   and i never thought you'd make it up so soon   might be nice but i always knew you're my destroyer   comes a time   and i always knew i'd make it up to you