me dwelling on these things   don't make matters much better, but please understand   that I am not trying to push you away,   blame (rest on me)    what makes us so perfect when I am so wrong.   what would it take to make these things go away?   what would it mean if I was not here wondering what it would be like if I was erased.   My mind lost by thought make these feelings go away.   The line that lies between the fading black rose petals that fall.