I've been home for days   But I refuse to call you   I've been home for days, I've been using my mind   To spy on you   I'd hide and lock away   The signs that would alert you   I'd crash my car and bury every key that would   Allow someone to get through      And what I run away from   Is why I'm not away when you're around   When you see me standing back   From the pictures in your bedroom, bleeding black   I'm surprised that I'm awake   With my head floating off the ground      I've been pissed for days   Beating my head against the wall   I'd be alone forever if I could   But I'd never tell   No, I'd never tell      And what I run away from   Is why I'm not away when you're around   When you see me standing back   From the pictures in your bedroom, bleeding black   I'm surprised that I'm awake   With my head floating off the ground      When our war is through   I'll drink to me, 'cause I'm alive      And what I run away from   Is why I'm not away when you're around   When you see me standing back   From the pictures in your bedroom, bleeding black   I'm surprised that I'm awake   With my head floating off the ground