People will change but I never will.       I will always remember, but don’t be shocked if they forget. I remember my clothing   and the scent of the morning. I'm sorry the tears just won't stop. And I'm the only one effected this family is useless. I’ve still got more questions. I should have been there when you died; I should have been there when you left. I know it wasn't up to me, but I am taking all the blame. We should have talked more. His childhood's confusing. You fought till the end so why'd you give in? This will bring us closer, I hate to complain but Christmas just won't feel right. The front row is better and there's no emotion on the faces of the people I've grown to ignore. I should have been there when you died; I should have been there when you left. I know it wasn't up to me, but I am taking all the blame.