December drags on   It's thirty one days too long   This silence is killing me   I fear it when I try to sleep   It's been one thing than another   Taking all the strength that I can muster   Not to pull the plug   When did I run out of luck?      Watching for the double-cross   I always knew I wouldn't escape without a scratch   Felt my feet on solid ground   Until I saw those fingers   Your fingers   Were crossed behind your back      Drown the pain with cheap champagne and   Wake me when it's time to go   I'm far too faded to celebrate it   The clock is moving way too slow   One more year like this one   I could never make it on my own      I smoked my last cigarette   I emptied any bottle that dared cross my path   Lying in this spinning room   I contemplate the remnants of my life   And curse away the past      I'd offer up a sacrifice   If I thought it would do any good this time   I recognize the harm I've caused   But I can not pay these crimes   I'm not sure I expect to be here New Year's Day