I wish to feel smaller   under your sheets.   I wish for the whole truth    every time you speak.   I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me    While I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep...      And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem   You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans   Ignoring me the morning after   isn't enough   and I swear I'm gonna cry.   I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.      And my blood won't stick   To the confines of my veins.   And your heart    Is gonna tear mine away.      And I wish to feel smaller under your hands,   though you seem satisfied as you slip mine   down your pants.   And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me   While you lift up my shirt after asking politely.      And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be   Cuz it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy.   I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up.   But I swear I'm gonna cry.   I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.      And my blood won't stick   To the confines of my veins.   And your heart    Is gonna tear mine away.      And it's hard to find   What I want   When it's buried beneath the biggest rock.   I could pay lots of money   To help lift it with machines   But I'm not sure you'd cooperate.   Not sure you'd come clean.      And I wish to feel smaller   under your sheets.   I wish for the whole truth    every time you speak.   And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me   As I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep.      And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem   You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans.   Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough   and I swear I'm going to cry.   I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.      Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry.   I'm sick of tryin' to be tough.      And my blood won't stick   To the confines of my veins.   And your heart    Is gonna tear mine away.      Is gonna tear mine away.