All of my life,    I've been a fool   Breaking myself to follow your rules   And I beat myself up   When I can't find the strength   When I can't seem to change   The harder I think      Let me get this straight   let me feel the weight of an ordinary day,    'cause I've tried to heal this thing   but you let me slip away      When I run away   You just let me run   And I take it too far   By the time I am done   And I understand    I'm thick in the skull   But I am learning to love   The sound of your call      Let me get this straight   Let me feel the weight of an ordinary day   'cause I've tried to heal this thing   But you let me slip away      I feel rejection    And I up my defenses   I look for you in a human touch   When will I learn to face the conspuences   I'm trying to love you   But I'm failing so much   I'm trying to love you   But I'm failing so much      Let me get this straight   Let me feel the weight of an ordinary day   'cause I've tried to heal this thing   But you let me slip away   But you let me slip away      Over and over and over again   I'm biting the hand    That's pulling me in   And over and over and over again   Bleeding, is the hand that keeps pulling me in