It's been awhile since I spoke like a human   Haven't seen you in over a decade and haven't talked since I moved   And I the whole town _?_ telling me you've been bad   Grieving over the fact that you're losing your baby's dad   But it's not just that, you're farther into the crack   Heard you're walking a track and marching into the trash   Fuck praying, 'cause I've been silent for years   I'm sick of trying to be a man about it; Hiding my tears   And fuck the judgment, I've got a messed up past   But when asked or confronted, I shut down fast   And the truth is, girl I cry when I think of you   And write a million songs that imma never get to sing with you   Talk about the places imma never get to bring you to   Show you what it's like to build a life and learn a thing or two   What hurts me is that I love you, 'cause you're my older sister   The only girl that I can rock with      Mom's so down when I ask and dad's so sad   That I don't know if he's ever gonna get past it   And really, I'm finding it hard for me to manage   Any close relationships without the fear of vanishing   All of this has been hard, I ain't denying it   I'm writing down this song as a product of my violence   But listen, they say that family is everything   It's more than just a house, two dogs and a wedding ring   It's blossoming life and standing up to anything   Trying to take the people that you love to what it's meant to be   Yeah, so then where'd you go?   Prisoner in your body quarantined from your soul   And I know those drugs got you out in the cold   Got you spitting in the mouth of those showing you hope   So if you'd ever come through to your senses   I'll be write here, waiting for a _?_