My brain is too busy   To help me to feel healthy   I'm anxious like I've never been before      My body is shaking   My body is cracking   I am lying on the floor      One step, two step, I'm trying so hard   I want to change who I used to be   But drugs are around me      I'm sorry but I've freaked out   My body said, "Sold out"   I take drugs over the odds   Money is my god      My body is crying   My heart is bleeding   Outside, it's raining   And the bells are ringing      'Cause tonight, I have a meeting   Where nobody will be speaking   About what's boring   I'm still searching, I'm still learning   Why I'm here, I wish God would find me      One step, two step, I'm trying so hard   I want to change who I used to be   But drugs are around me      I'm sorry but I've freaked out   My body said, "Sold out"   I take drugs over the odds   Money is my god      But I'm lucky   'Cause I have a lover   She's the sunshine for me, she's a sweet melody   She's an open mind; I'd be a fool to let her down   When I hate myself and I wanna die, she keeps me alive      One step, two step, I'm trying so hard   I want to change who I used to be   But drugs are around me      I'm sorry but I've freaked out   My body said, "Sold out"   I take drugs over the odds   Money is my god      Ohh, God is here   I'm sorry but I have to stop this conversation