I struggled and reconciled   These words of hope and freedom   And these minister's convictions   These verbal mausoleums      Vowels start emancipations   And holy carpe diems   The battles and bombshells I have levied on myself in the form of you   In the form of you      Now how can these all coexist   The heartbreak for the dying   When my trials gave way to failure   My silence gave way to crying      And now look at this destruction   Good and evil still are fighting   Leaving mangled half-hearts in their wake   They take their toll on you in the form of me   In the form of me      [Chorus:]   Well I've been an agent of the death of love   I've been an angel from above   Don't mind the way I feel   Please save yourself   And I've derailed your stability (priorities)   You've given that ability to me   (And) I can say I've done it well   But we've failed the final challenge, love   We're both so out of balance, love   Let's commit this suicide and save us all      Well my heart will not forgive me   For this unwilling extraction   Of your love from its controlling grips   This unpardonable action      We'll wage civil war between my heart and mind   The duelling factions never really got along so well   I'll sell a heart that still belongs to you   In the form of us two      But even my old heart's determined   Unforgiveness does not measure a capacity for hurt   And in that's volume of displeasure to the guilt that I would feel   Having killed you to have kept you   If you ever had an ounce of trust, believe me when I say you must be free   From this infernal me      (Chorus)      And, oh, I love you still   And I believe that you love me   And, oh, I love you still   And I believe that you love me   And I believe that you love me      Well it's a paradox of such a big proportion   I may never understand why anyone would ever bother to endeavor to   Make justified the columns of the right now and what's left forever   Underneath the layers of a heart that's partly me and partly you   I am partly you      For that precise equation   I must separate my feelings and our future for the sake of you   The sake of your own healing   If I let you be a part of me, my self-destructive peeling back   The layers of your love will take you down and I will not be that to you   No, I will not be that to you      (Chorus)      Oh we've failed the final challenge, love   We've been so in and out of love   Let's commit this suicide and save us all   Let's commit this suicide and save us all   Let's commit this suicide and save us all