And I can't count how many times before   I got lost in the wreckage of my past   But this time, I'll realize   And say goodbye to my idle mind      And i had a bad dream tonight, and I panicked   I wake up in a familiar pool of sweat      One day at a time    They say how it goes   But for me I'll never know      Transforming every belonging   Into a temporary feeling   I can make everything I ever owned   Vanish in front of your eyes   In a cloud of smoke      I'm a liar, I'm a cheat    I'm everything bad there is in between   Everything good I've ever done in my life has gone away   I'm miserable, I'm depressed   And I can't figure out a way to push this off my chest    And even with every boring day I have clean   I can't find a way to completely fix me   So convince me      But I'm not a bad guy,   I'm just terribly sick   I really don't want to lie    But it feels like the only way    I know to live       But I want better for myself    I just want to be sheltered   From the storm   I want to escape these chains   But I just can't find the key   To my insanity   (God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,   The courage to change the things I can   And the wisdom to know the difference)    Please find me      And I'm hurting   I can't forget   The taste, the feeling   Being too numb to regret   But when I look in her eyes   It all goes away in the end   And I'm tired   But I can't sleep   I spend my nights   Living inside bad dreams   And when I wake up   Every problem I left   Is still there   And bigger than it had been before   I can't do this alone anymore      And I cried out for help   I'm desperate    I've fallen again      In this private hell   You held out your arms   You whispered    It's okay   Come home   And you took me out    Of the dark   And convinced me   I'll be okay       And I'm sober   I'm finally clean   I put my past    So far behind me   And I don't ever want to look back in my life   No, never again    I survived the unthinkable   I hold back tears, and I take a grateful breath of fresh air   And with every, precious day I have clean   I can't say enough   How much better you've made me