I've been swimming upstream   against the flow of what I should know   resistance is almost addictive   I've been told   now I've been told   it's taking me under   now I see, I see   I wait for the thunder   to wash over me   to come clean      when something is wrong I hate myself   for not being strong in the face of it   when I let it out I want to raise the roof   I want to let it out      I'm swimming downstream downstream   go with the flow that's what I'm told   resistance is just a bad habit   I should know yes I should know      it's been taking me under   now I see, I see   I wait for the thunder   to wash over me    to come clean