empty feeling in a crowded room he knew that   he shouldn't have come today   best intentions get misunderstood   he just wanted to see her face again   thinks it might just be the last time    everyday his courage slips alittle more   he knows soon it's gonna have to end   since she's gone and seen the one before       he'd been living in a memory till now   never wanted to face it until now   couldn't even say the name until now   cut his wrist and let the blood spill out   couldn't face it till now      shook her fathers hand good bye   kissed her mother on the face she started to cry   hate so strong it always showed   no one said it but he'd always know      blue flowers on her mattress are all that he sees now   a broken picture of her face that just won't fade   it's finally gonna fade now      'cause he'd been living in a memory 'til now   never wanted to face it until now   couldn't even say the name until now   couldn't even say the name until now   never wanted to face it till now   it never faded 'til now