I keep on waiting to find myself   I keep on running towards the sun   I guess I want everything under the blue sky      and I wanna laugh 'til I cry again   I want to feel all the pain    and all the joy for the first time again      'cause I'm alive and I'm not waiting   I love it here but I'm not staying      Because it hurts too much to watch it all slip away   I'm standing here in your eyes all the things I can't say   I don't want to lose myself so I've just got to start again   it's such a big world out there that I'm not waiting      I go to sleep in an empty room   I walk alone on the beach at the edge of the sea   the water so cold but it wont stop me   and I'll lose everything I have   and as it washes away I feel my heart start to beat again      'cause I'm alive and I'm not waiting   I love it here but I'm not staying      Because it hurts too much to watch it all slip away   I'm standing here in your eyes all the things I can't say    and I don't want to lose myself so I just got to start again   it's such a big world out that that I'm not waiting   oh ohh it's such a big world out there and I'm not waiting      and I I I would never blame you for walking away from me   so just please    'cause I'm alive and I'm not waiting   I love it here but I'm not staying      Because it hurts too much to watch it all slip away   I am standing here in your eyes all the things I can't say    and I don't want to lose myself so I've just got to start again   it's such a big world out there and I'm not waiting   it's such a big world out there and I'm not mmm   it's such a big world out there and I'm not waiting