I'm sick of living in this movie   Everybody looking through me   No one here to hold   I just wake up and leave.   A chill is in my bones   more than this sunless early winter morning   Waiting for a ride   Out in the freezing rain      And it goes by   Without stopping      Her stuff is on the counter   what if I had never met her?   All I know is just a feeling   from inside my veins   I am broken-hearted   It is awful worse than i had ever guessed   I wouldn't wish it on an enemy      And I can't hear   What my friends say      It won't let up   Just enough   To come down   Just one day.   I have given up   All but one   Thing I   Can do or say      Blood is rushing, pumping through   My heart to push the oxygen and   Opiates through arteries up to my brain   The beat is systematic   not the reason for my habit   I just need a bigger picture   to fill in the space   My head is getting lighter   I can almost hear my sister calling   Begging for my reason to go on this way      I'm sick of living in this movie   Everybody looking through me   No one here to hold me   As I fade away   But I won't die   In no pain   I won't die, won't die   Won't die, won't die   I won't die, won't die   Won't die, won't die