Make me, make me sweat   till I'm wet, till I'm dry    but then wipe this tear from my eye    haven't felt this warm in a long time    even out in the bright sunshine    in a lifetime of springtime       I fall into your arms   with my heart pumpin' on   like a bubblin' dub treck    like a garlicy hot tongue and lip smack      I did some contemplation   before we got down to this consecration   maybe baby somethin in your kiss said    it was an impetous,    for me to re-think this.      If I love you,    then I better get tested   make sure we're protected       I walk through the park   dressed like a question mark    Hark!    I hear my memory bak   in the back of my brain,   makin' me insane ...    ...like cocaine.       (chorus)    But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?   Is it gonna be a negative?   How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?    Is it gonna be a negative?    but how'm I gonna live my life If I'm positive?      It dawned on me, it seemed to me   this is unusual scenery,    this red light greenery    make me feel kinda dreamery,    thinkin'how I used to be      Arrive at the clinic    walk through the front door   take a nervous number   then I think some more    about all the time   that I neglected    makin sure that   I was protected.       They took my blood   With an anonymous number   two weeks waitin' wonderin'       I shoulda done this a long time ago    alot of excuses why I couldn't go   I know these things and these things I must know    'Cause it's better to know than to not know!       (chorus)       I go home to kick it    in my apartment    I try to give myself    a risk assessment   the wait is what can really annoy ya    everyday's more paranoya       I'm readin' about how it's transmitted    some behavior I must admit it.    who I slept with, who they slept with,    who they, who they, who they slept with.       I think about life and immortality    what's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V.    have a cry and tell my mother    get on the phone and call my past lovers    I never thought about infectin' anotha    all the times that I said "Hmm? Don't bother."       Was it really all that magic?    the times I didn't use a prophalactic       Would my whole life have to change?   or would my whole life remain the same?    sometimes it makes me wanna shout!    all these things too hard to think about   a day to laugh, a day to cry   a day to live and a day to die   'till I find out, I may wonder   but I'm not gonna live my life six feet under       (chorus)