walking alone   feet growing cold   and i'm running alone   not that far   i am fading      a bit too young to think that i'm growing old   slightly more than i can take in         be cynical   enemy on the phone   make me miserable   and i don't know if i can take it   even though   i don't know   i suppose   it is too much for me to take in      try to be as clear as i can be with you   nothing more that i can do   but clearly i've been here before      i'm trying to make you understand   understand   you don't understand   understand   understand understand   you don't understand   understand   you won't understand   you won't understand   understand understand   you don't understand   you don't understand   understand understand      running alone   lose control   not invincible   something wrong   needs to break in   closer to me   nothing to see   your own enemy   and i don't know if i can take it or break it      apologies   ashamed of what i came to be   afraid of what it means to me   amazed at what i need to know      i'm trying to make you understand   understand   you don't understand   understand   understand understand   you don't understand   understand   you don't understand   you don't understand   understand understand   you don't understand   you don't understand   understand understand      enemies   they tap you on the shoulder   and they trap you in the corner   leaves me   wondering   what they really want from me   exit plan   and codependency   even to me   things will change   now you hold my friend   war again   violence in   in the trench   they don't understand   understand   they don't understand   but they want to talk about it