smells like roadkill on the open grill   that love still pressing hard against your clumsy will   fire raging from a camera's flash   will turn your whole pretty life into smooth soft ash   did this just happen or did you do it   no one barges into your life you have to guide them to it   did this just happen or did you do it      out with the screaming cicadas   out where the night really lets you go   they thought you'd lost yourself, children tend to roam   they didnt know you had found your home      now the city floor stabs your feet   you'd like to melt all the concrete   baby, they'd never kill you but they'll cast you out      your mothers kissing your dog's lips   your baby brothers got a mouth full of shit   your dad is screaming at a flashing screen   who the fuck are these people   what the fuck do they mean      loud, angry rock and roll confessions   will never save you from your senseless obsessions   deep inside your mind that tape will stubbornly rewind   and you may not ever be the same      did this just happen or did you do it   this tangled mass of bodies, you will never see through it   youll think, "did this just happen or did i do it"      they want to speak to your father   they want to know how you got this way   they want to hold you responsible   they want to first make sure thats okay      i still see some of the old freaks   the lies they still tell   little hiccups from hell   when they fall in with their   eyes all hanging from their sockets   hands reaching for the walls   but mine are in my pockets      i keep my brain on a heavy metal chain   swinging high above my head, and i'm proud to be insane   but when your wildest thoughts and addictions get stronger   whatever doesn't kill you only takes you longer      i laughed--stunned, nervous, and afraid   at the places they'd gone   all the things i'd made   my trash bags of love, how i threw them on the street   to watch them float like balloons quickly out of reach      now here come the lions   with their teeth torn out   their claws removed   and their eyes half closed      and they're gnawing on my legs   and scratching at my feet   and i'm hoping that their anger   will put them to sleep      when you've dried your eyes, but your skin still weeps   you should make a plan and ride it off to sleep