For this reason   I will think of what I've done   I will convince myself I'm fine   And then I'll hate what I've become      Everything is coming down to shadows or the sun   It's just to live inside your head   Or pretend that you're in love again      Talk to me, let on to me   Not like you never ran   I may not be the perfect lover   And I'm not the perfect man      If there's a truth I'm hiding it   I think because I can   Cause I'm afraid of what I'm saying   I'm afraid of what I am again      Don't put yourself above this   We all want what we can't have   You just wanna be in love   And I just wanna take it back      I wish it was the season   And not me that made you sad   Perhaps I'm flattered by intentions   I've made up inside my head again      You still think of me   I'm not asking you to wait I never would   Die so quietly   And I bet you'd let the world know if you could      Don't act so surprised, yea   When I quote you on your work   You had advertised it well   And I relate to every word      And if a man takes you away   Perhaps you'll change your gunga-din   You like to change the things you say?   Perhaps one day you'll change them back again      This is not religiously   But nothing without faith   What is making is more real   To put your heartache on display?      Perhaps you'll trust   And maybe work   And maybe one day pray   But not a bit of that will matter   If you're waiting on a better day      Think he'll stumble on the things that you have wished?   Well best of luck   I guess you could be right, and I suppose I could be wrong   But I doubt Devendra gives a flying fuck      You're still wondering   If it's wishful thinking, tell me- I am gone   Sky goes a'thundering   And the words I mean to say just come out wrong