[Chorus]   Well I'm sorry and I apologize   For any pain I may have caused you   And I made you my enemy   But Now I need you as my friend   And I've been wrong for so long   Not to ask for your forgiveness   And if you don't accept, I'll understand   But I need to make amends   But I need to make amends      It's hard for me to say this   But I've been going through some changes   And I'm really not quite sure where to begin   I've been kissing devils   And fighting angels   Putting the rest of you in danger   And blaming you for the turmoil beneath my skin   And my twisted versions of the truth   Are a weak man's attempt to look better than you   Can't believe your pain never gave you a grin   And I've wanted to kill a thousand times   But I think I just thought that I wouldn't survive   But I found happiness ain't something to win      [Chorus]      Well, I've lied to you so many times   With a mad desire to control your mind   Searching for things to no one finds   And I've killed your time and stole you blind   I've taught you things you don't need to learn   So I can cut in line and take your turn   I've filled your head with snakes and worms   On my search for a bridge to burn   I wanna live with no uncertainty   But that man in the mirror's been hurtin' me.   And I've come to you, cause there's nowhere else to go      [Chorus]      If you see me sad, don't pity it   I've been a God damn idiot   My life, my fault, my actions make me break   And I can't even see it, so be it   That's what I think   When everybody's gonna blame the world   I blame my mom and dad and put it in a song   I'm weak, so I act strong   I'm short, so I talk long   And layin' in the hospital   I think, have I been wrong?   All along   I'm 29, still playin' "Look at me!"   What am I, three?   Self-esteem on E   Can't you see   I've been often negligent   Almost never benevolent   I think I'm intelligent   But mostly irrelevant   Cause I ain't changed one bit   Even though I quit   Who cares if I'm sober if   I'm still gonna steal shit   I had to be broken down   Another apocalypse   To see what I had missed   And just come and tell you this   My pride, gotta suck it up   My gut, gotta tuck it up   So here goes, dawg   I love you   I fucked it up      [Chorus] x2